Life

Life never fails to amaze me. I now have a job and am very thankful to have it indeed. Since yesterday was my last day of training before switching stores I offered a coworker a ride home since we lived in the same area. While dropping him off I shut off the car as we chatted a bit. We said goodbye and I attempted to start the car..nothing. I tried again yay it started! I drove about a foot and the car just shut off. I tried and tried and still nothing. The coworker came back down and 2 strangers came over to help me out. We moved the car into a parking spot and one of the guys was pretty good with cars and tried everything he could to try and get it to work to no avail.
I was so grateful to have them there. Even though they were strangers. In the end one of the guys gave me a ride home. I am very appreciative of their kindness.
Today I called the tow truck and brought the car to the dealership. They told me that it was my cars computer and that it was recalled so I wouldn't have to pay and they also covered the price of the tow. Amazing stuff today.
It's always great when you feel like nothing ever goes right for you, that you meet random strangers that will take time out of their day just to help you.
I hope if I am ever in the situation to help, that I will do it without hesitation.

Finally!!

Alright so after my slight breakdown the other day. I got a job!! I am now working in a computer store full time. It's a brand new start for me and I'm super excited! I am also however very tired. So I shall sign off for today. But I am very glad to say that things are looking up!

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I was thinking back to when I was younger. About things that most kids think about what I'm going to be when I grow up and where I will be in my life by a certain age and what my absolute dream job was. The problem with all of this is that I realized that I don't think I have a dream job. Which makes me feel like I have nothing to strive for. I would love to go back to school but I don't know what I would take. Maybe legal assistant or para-legal. I think those would be challenging and interesting. I wanted to become a professional hockey playing in high school, women in hockey don't really have that option though. Most of them have regular day jobs and are only seen come Olympic time. As soon as high school was ending I thought for sure I wanted to be a teacher and then realized that I wasn't really meant to be a teacher. I always saw myself as successful when I grew up. Well I am all grown up now and I am unemployed and far from anything successful. I have applied everywhere and haven't heard a thing. I feel a little like a leper and that I've taken a huge step backwards in my life. I hope that I hear from ANY job that I have applied for in the last 4 months..life is a little stressful at the moment. Well..venting complete
Goodnight

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So, I've been thinking recently that the whole "save the best for last" thing is not smart at all. It has taken me 27 years to realize that saving the best for last mostly just leaves you too full the the "best" thing. I am not really sure why I have been thinking about this. I'm random like that. It just seems that it would be smarter to take bites or pieces of the "best" thing whilst doing or eating other things so you aren't so full that way you experience it before being full. I hope this is all making sense. Anyway, just a thought.

Long Time

I have neglected writing on here because nothing new has really happened.
I in fact gave myself some projects to do to fill in the time between applying for jobs each day.
I have been living in my apartment for almost 2 years now and only painted the bedroom a light blue to match my duvet cover. I also painted a very dark blue wall as a focus wall. However the remaining walls were a horrible yellowish beige and made it look very dingy and dull. So I decided that I would paint my bathroom a purple (that's my favourite colour) and the kitchen and remaining walls in the living room white. The living room went smoothly and only took a few hours to do. I decided next to do the kitchen..getting behind the fridge and stove was the biggest problem but it looks much fresher now.
Then comes the bathroom. The biggest pain of all. It's a small bathroom and has tight spots and many corners. I primed it to make sure that the paint would look its best. The paint went on well but it felt like it took forever! Around the toilet was the worst terrible, I had to contort myself just to get into a position for the paint brush to hit the wall. But I finally finished the bathroom and it looks great!

I am glad however that the painting is done and I don't have any more painting to do!

The Pics are of the living room walls and bathroom. They are not of good quality because there was no daylight..sorry.
Next time my apartment is really clean I will take full room pictures and make sure there is daylight ;)

Job searching

So, I have been unemployed since the end of March (it is now August). I have applied to a million new jobs, I don't even think that is an exaggeration, and I haven't heard from a single one. I admit I have been quite picky with the jobs that I have been applying for because of the way that I would like my life to go and the way that I have gotten used to living. However, I have realized now that being picky is getting me absolutely nowhere and have lowered my standards for which jobs I will apply for and where.
 I knew that I was getting a little antsy because I made the decision to paint my living room and bought all the supplies I needed in order to do so in about a day. And then I picked a colour for the bathroom (which I have yet to paint because I am still sore from painting the living room) and plan to paint ASAP.
The living room turned out great! It is much brighter and less dingy than the colour (a yellowish beige) it came with. I think my painting was a way for me to keep myself busy and stop thinking about how I have been unemployed forever, and you know,  have a nicer apartment in the end ;)
Anyway, I applied for a couple of new jobs today, Lets just hope I hear from them!
Oh, and I'll update on the bathroom painting situation as soon as I start!

The past year (a history)

Since this is my first post I am going to give a little history from the past year.

This year has been the hardest year of my life. It started with a good high paying job and a mostly healthy and happy family and friends. I am living away from home and love life in the city compared to growing up in a small town. I had just learned to snowboard the year before and couldn't wait for the snow to fall again and get out on the slopes.
In October of last year my grandfather passed away. He was sick for quite awhile before he passed so it was just a matter of time. I was unable to go home for the funeral. This made me sad but there wasn't anything that I could do about it.
About a month and a half later I received a text message from my brother saying; "oh by the way dad had a stroke last night". I am pretty sure that my heart stopped and I felt as if I was frozen and couldn't move. My brother is terrible with emergency situations but I pushed him for as much info as I could.
Basically my dad decided he wanted to stay up a little bit later than usual and so did my step mom. He started displaying the symptoms such as slurred speech and numbness. My step-mom luckily recognized them and called an ambulance. Luckily this happened on an evening she was not working nights.
My dad ended up with no feeling or mobility in his entire right side and has lost the ability to taste anything other than spicy and garlic. But he is alive, and that is the important thing.
As my dad was recovering, life for me was going on. I got calls from him on a regular basis with updates on his health and his speech was improving and so was his mobility through therapy. I was worried about him but as I was in school as well as working full time, I was again unable to go home and see him.
As December came I started getting very bad pains in my stomach. I am someone who gets sick a lot, I always have been. I got my tonsils out almost 2 years ago because the amount of times I have had strep throat and they were ginormous! The pain in my stomach was completely new for me. And I have never felt pain like that before. I am not sure exactly how things happened but at one point I also had strep..again. I was off work for most of December. Come January I pushed myself to go back to work..I made it for 3 days.
The pain in my stomach was not getting any better, in fact it seemed more extreme and frequent.
I headed back to the doctor and I was referred to a specialist and had many blood tests and urine samples (sorry if you don't like to hear that stuff). There was always too much blood in my urine, which meant more testing. I was put on some heavy duty drugs to ease the pain (don't know what they were-just that demerol didn't work and had to get something stronger).
My specialist appointment was not until May..yeah MAY! I couldn't work because I had to take the pain pills and they made me sleep. The time between January and May did not pass quickly, I think I cried everyday from the pain. There were days that I was okay though and I did sneak in a few nights of snowboarding. It made me get out of my sweatpants for a few hours at least.
I should also mention that my doctor had no idea what was wrong with my stomach as none of the tests including an MRI showed up with anything. My parents were annoyingly worried about me..that sounds bad to say but when your mom calls you flipping out about why nothing new is happening it does not help in any way.
Through the whole experience I tried not to think about it. I would think positively and hope that it would all work out. Some days were harder to think that way than others. My boyfriend was amazing, through everything he was there for me and with me everyday he could be. I don't know if I could ever thank him enough for that. May came around and I finally went to my appointment with the specialist. He believed that I had kidney stones, and possibly at the time of the MRI they just weren't there. He prescribed for me to drink a glass of lemonade a day. This seemed a little ridiculous to me but I'd do anything to make the pain go away at this point. Slowly but surely the pain went away. It felt weird not having pain anymore. I was scared to get the pain again..it never came. I did however start to HATE lemonade :) I was not a huge fan of it before but having to drink it made me dislike it even more.
Around that time I received a letter from my work saying that my contract for my job was not being renewed. I knew I wouldn't be but when you get it in writing it's king of a kick in the face.
Summer was coming and I was unemployed and stressed. I was officially employed until the end of March and scraping by on my payments from employment insurance and still recovering. My health was getting better..slowly. As I was feeling better I joined a beach volleyball league with my friends as well as a soccer team. I was very happy to be out and about with all my friends again.
I am still looking for a job so that's a little stressful but I am feeling really good these days. I am now taking daily pills as a lemonade substitute (I got acid reflux from too much lemonade lol) and it works great!
I am applying daily for new jobs and hoping I hear something soon. I am also hoping to win a lottery that magically has my name in it..as I don't buy tickets.
I am hoping to use this blog as a way to vent the good and the bad stuff I am going through. Hopefully it is mostly good stuff ;)